"Dark Places" - acrylic on mat board, 11.5" x 8". Ready to frame. Available here and at Artfinder.
There is a recurring theme swirling about me. Stuff. Things. Collections. Knick-knacks and whatnots. Not just mine, but those belonging to others. I ache for those who are forced to part with things before they are ready. I celebrate with those who are jettisoning stuff because they want to. And I cringe as things multiply in my own house even as I admire this vase or that sculpture or that delicious, fluffy pale rose blanket at the end of the bed.
So when this article popped into my inbox, I was mesmerized. "I am my things and my things are me. I don’t want to relinquish them. This reluctance is not acquisitiveness: it is that I don’t want to abandon myself." Whoa. Lee Randall speaks my language. And yet I have a love/hate relationship with stuff.
As the trash truck drove away with about thirty years of my scribbles, I was prepared to be upset - to feel that I had abandoned myself, as Randall said. What I wasn't prepared for was the feeling of vast space inside. A space that could be filled with new imaginings, new dreams, new anything. Hmmmmmm. That got me thinking.
My husband and I played "Let's Move to Nebraska" during Hurricane Irma. Lately that game has morphed into "Why Not Move to Oregon" and some daydreaming about living along the rugged seastacks of the Pacific coast. So I asked him during one of our nightly dog walks/philosophy sessions what he thought about leaving everything behind and beginning again. To my surprise, my stuff-hoarding man was open to the idea of re-defining ourselves and our space. But I suppose it isn't so scary when we would still have each other: witnesses to our lives and reminders of halcyon days gone by. Also our conversation was pure conjecture. A safe zone for risk taking.
But I am looking at my stuff with fresh eyes, wondering what else I can drop-kick to make room for more potentiality. I have been firmly instructed, however, to keep my fresh eyes off a certain someone's baseball hat collection.